I’m Joanna (she/her/hers). I am based in Florida. I am in continuous recovery from substance use disorder. My first year in recovery I didn’t know I was practicing radical self care – the very foundation Horticulture For Healing is built on. Though my non profit I will share the benefits and experiences of practicing therapeutic horticulture when in early recovery, during a time when one is facing a myriad of challenges and obstacles including but not limited to mental health issues, housing, physical health, and overall life balance and the systemic stigma that plagues these parts of life.
Therapeutic Horticulture also called community horticulture is defined as :
a process that uses plants and plant-related activities through which participants strive to improve their well-being though active of passive involvement (AHTA,2007).
My mission is to provide creative support resources to people in recovery though connecting to and working with plants.
I share my deeply personal story with hopes that others can relate and share what propelled me into creating a non profit:
I got sober at a young age. I grew up in an alcoholic home. As a young girl, as early as I can remember I felt confused, lost, afraid of my self and disliked everything about my body and my mind. I stared drinking alcohol and using marijuana at the age of 13. Almost immediately it relieved me of being in my body. I did’t like the taste and smells but I deep down knew it was something that would take me out of my self. It wasn’t soon after this at the age of 14, I wound up in a relationship with an abuser in which I faced sexual, emotional and physical abuse for close to 4 years. Trauma entailed, piling onto trauma of my family life.
At the age of 16 I began using other drugs seeking escape from the pain and fear of abuse I was experiencing. I became numb. Before too long my drug and alcohol use was daily, as I dove deeper into life with my abuser. I did eventually get out of the abuse. I became so dependent on substances it felt normal to me.
By the age of 23, I was using any substance I could get my hands on, cut my self off from family and anyone that wanted to help me. I ended up un-housed with more than two DUIs, extensive misdemeanor and possession convictions, and one felony charge. I went through a brief 2 year stint in and out of jail. I was facing entering into the Prison system for a 4 to 6 year sentence, or perhaps longer – after a series of court dates, and an option to go to treatment, I ended up in a residential treatment program. After leaving that facility in 2012 I ended up staying sober and my recovery began.
The following are only a few of the many barriers one can face due to the stigmas of addiction, recovery, and sexual abuse. What I have listed are challenges that I personally experienced:
Having to explain personal history because of a past criminal record and substance use disorder when I began applying for jobs. Only to share my truth and then be turned down time and time again. I have faced times of extensive unemployment due to having a ‘criminal background record’ in this county. Only the passage of time since my convictions has helped me get to where I am now. Having to wait 7-10 years before something from my past can be overlooked in some states doesn’t help people own their life and recover.
Having to explain my long drawn out substance use history and record when applying for higher education.
Not being able to rent an apartment.
Not having reliable references for applications or any record of past stable employment history.
Obtaining positive financial means such as a credit card.
Mental health struggles.
Having drivers license revoked, and having to navigate self sufficiency for commuting to probation, work, recovery meetings, doctors appts, grocery store while living in a state and country where public transportation is inadequate.
I want to stand with and for all people who are faced with multiple forms of oppression due to their life histories. People who are confronted everyday with the seemingly endless overlapping and interdependent systems of discrimination and disadvantages created by this ongoing white suprematist capitalist society.
With support, time and practice I have been able to grow and learn from my past and I do not shut the door on it. I can use it as fuel for my fire to do things I never thought I could do. I am now aware of the space inside me to grow into my own power. In 2019 I claimed my undergraduate degree and became the first generation in my family to earn a college degree.
In my final semester of my undergrad degree I became even more passionate and dedicated to supporting people and discovering where I can fit into social justice. I have the intention of creating more resources for people to heal creatively. I am aware this is desperately needed for underrepresented communities. We live in a society and country in which mental health resources are lacking and severely overlooked.
I have found connecting to nature is a way to practice self kindness and love while contributing to my self discovery. It conjures inspiration, gives me a sense of accomplishment and belonging and brightens a day of confusion and negative thinking – which for me as a recovering person, can happen often. Nurturing plants and working with others moves me towards decisive substantial thinking while connecting to the outside world. This is when I find I am able to touch and connect to the power within.
My intentions for this organization are to support recovering individuals who are underrepresented and face the barriers of societal norms through radical self care. Horticulture For Healing is designed to empower people to claim their beauty, value, strength, and space.
The content on my website, social media and in my original redistributable zines will continue to acknowledge, question, and help combat colonization, gender inequality and white supremacy that makes up this country, in a sustainable and creative way.
